Tuesday, June 07, 2016

Crush

Sharing this again for posterity.

Jullana posted this on FB last 03 June 2016.


To which, her classmate Chester who has a crush on her, commented #10. So here was my comment and the conversation that ensued.

After a while, he deleted his message and replaced with this.


And after a little more while, he PMed me this.

I think I handled it pretty well, didn't I? ;) 


Wednesday, June 01, 2016

Drunk in love

The little big man, who's a big boy now, has been going through a lot of changes over the past year. I guess what I'm about to share is one milestone and deserves a detailed story-telling.

Cousins from Bataan were over at the brother's house last Monday. As expected, brother and cousins went drinking, as they usually do when they get together.

I let the big boy Migo join the younger cousins. I went to bed early only to be woken up by the brother and nephew, carrying my big boy into the bedroom, drunk.

He was saying all kinds of things, blabbering actually. I made sure I took a video of him so I could later show it to him and make him realize how stupid he looked drunk, in effect, make him NOT drink anymore in the future.

Some random blabber:

M: pakisabi sa syota ko...
Tyrone: wag mo sabihn syota kase ibig sabihn nun short time.
M: ok pakisabi sa lota ko... lota... long time 😁

M: mahal na mahal ko mommy ko. Gusto ko pakita sa kanya na naaappreciate ko mga paghihirap nya.

M: (to Tyrone who had him in his arms) don't rape me!

To wit, all of these are recorded in a secret file in my phone. For future reference. Someday. 😉

Monday, May 23, 2016

A conversation with my old friend last night stuck to me. All this time, I am seen as a weak person by friends of my younger self. I guess because they saw me as a sheltered, defenseless, littel girl back in college. Back then, we would go on class projects at my house since my parents won't allow me to sleep over at another person's house. My dad would always pick me up from school when we had classes till 9pm. I had a nanny who took care of my needs at home. I was a crybaby -- the littlest sad things, even happy things, made me cry. My college friends knew all that.

Funny how I knew all this time too, that I was the most independent among my siblings. At 10 years old, I asked for my own bedroom while my brothers slept in the same room as our nanny. I was usually by myself in doing my homeworks and other activities. I learned to commute by myself at 12 yrs old. Right out of college, I looked for a job on my own and never asked my parents to pull any strings for me to get in companies where they had associates in.

I got married in my late 20s. That's when I became dependent on the hubby. I never went anywhere new without him. I relied on him literally what I was gonna eat everyday. He always did things for me and the kids and I almost couldn't do anything without asking his opinion.

But as years passed, and especially in our situation now, I am on my own again. I'm dealing with things I never thought I could handle.

I guess I could say that I am a coper. I cope with what life throws at me. I'm glad I am such. I hope my children learns this too.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Army

This is my song for you. But you're not here.

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I know that I've been messed up
You never let me give up
All the nights and the fights
And the blood and the breakups
You're always there to call up
I'm a pain, I'm a child, I'm afraid
But yet you understand
Yeah like no one can
Know that we don't look like much
But no one fucks it up like us

16 and you never even judged me
Matter of fact I always thought you were too cool for me
Sitting there in the caravan
All the nights we've been drunk on the floor
And yet you understand
Yeah like no one can
We both know what they say about us
But they don't stand a chance because
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
I'm standing with an army
I'm standing with an army
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
I'm standing with an army
Standing with an army

Dark times, you could always find the bright side
I'm amazed by the things that you would sacrifice
Just to be there for me
How you cringe when you sing out of tune
But yet it's everything
So don't change a thing
We both know what they say about us
But they don't stand a chance because

When I'm with you
When I'm with you
I'm standing with an army
I'm standing with an army
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
I'm standing with an army
Standing with an army

Standing with an army
Standing with an army
Standing with an army
Standing with an army
(I'll be yours)
Standing with an army
Standing with an army
I'm standing with an army

Yet you understand
Yeah like no one can
We both know what they say about us

When I'm with you
When I'm with you
I'm standing with an army
I'm standing with an army
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
I'm standing with an army
They don't have a chance because

Standing with an army
Standing with an army
Standing with an army
Standing with an army
Standing with an army
Standing with an army
Standing near you
Standing with an army
Standing with an army
Standing with an army
Standing with an army
Standing with an army
Standing with an army
When I'm with you
Standing with an army