today is a testimony of my love for him more than ever. ok, i promise this won't be cheesy. just a matter-of-fact translation of what i actually feel right now.
i was thinking this morning on my way to work, that i've already accepted his mistakes and shortcomings. yes, after almost 9 years i am finally able to cope. i guess. i hope.
there was a time when i almost gave up on this marriage. and today i think that experience made our bond stronger. and all the negative things that happened and may still be happening has brought us to a new level in our relationship, a deeper understanding of our many conflicting personalities that i realized, compliment each other. like now, his bad temper makes me appreciate when he is extra sweet. when he does things that are wrong for me, i am reminded of the many right things he does. when he sometimes scolds the kids excessively, i know he loves them more than they'll ever know. sometimes, he can be a bit offensive with his words but this is put to good use when he is defending me and our family. which makes me secure that he will always protect us. through the years, he has learned to apologize sincerely.
today his imperfections became the perfect tools for me to decide to love him more. after all, marriage is not just love, it's a decision.